Journal Entry
Carmel's diary entry after first day in Melbourne:
Day 1
A promise
involves the voluntary giving of one's word that, if and when a particular
circumstance or situation comes about, one will accept to do what was promised,
no matter what!
That is all I
can think about, the promises that I made to mum, dad and Vince. People commit
to promises but never really think what they mean and what they mean to other people.
What if the promise I made to mum and dad means something completely different
to what I think it means? Me moving to Melbourne and living in this new house
with these strange people that I have never met only ever heard stories about. How
am I possibly going to keep the promises to the people I love if I don’t even
know what if doing to happen to my future.
I have this
crushing overwhelming feeling about some bad is going to happen. Something in some
way will end up screwing everything up and I won’t be able to fix it. What if
they don’t like me, I saw the way that Katerina look at me full of disgust and other
emotions. I shouldn’t have come this was a terrible idea and I should have just
stayed at home away from all this drama and pressure.
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