Monday, 4 July 2016

Queen Kat, Carmel and St. Jude get a Life

Journal Entry

Carmel's diary entry after first day in Melbourne:

Day 1
A promise involves the voluntary giving of one's word that, if and when a particular circumstance or situation comes about, one will accept to do what was promised, no matter what!
That is all I can think about, the promises that I made to mum, dad and Vince. People commit to promises but never really think what they mean and what they mean to other people. What if the promise I made to mum and dad means something completely different to what I think it means? Me moving to Melbourne and living in this new house with these strange people that I have never met only ever heard stories about. How am I possibly going to keep the promises to the people I love if I don’t even know what if doing to happen to my future.
I have this crushing overwhelming feeling about some bad is going to happen. Something in some way will end up screwing everything up and I won’t be able to fix it. What if they don’t like me, I saw the way that Katerina look at me full of disgust and other emotions. I shouldn’t have come this was a terrible idea and I should have just stayed at home away from all this drama and pressure.